Colorless Tsukuru Tazaki and His Years of Pilgrimage

I both love and hate Colorless Tsukuru Tazaki and His Years of Pilgrimage. This story had me on such a rollercoaster of emotions that I feel like I might burst by literally not knowing how to feel. The book opens up with Tsukuru Tazaki as a sophomore in college contemplating suicide. The first bit of this book is a dark and tragic look at a lonely young adult in the sprawling city of Tokyo just barely holding on to his life.