Needing a Change of Scenery

Having been in college since September 2004 I have to say I am starting to feel the burn of my brain telling me it never wants to read another text book, cram for another exam, and stress about grades ever again. Making the change to UC Irvine has been a challenging one and has made me choose to really rack my brain to the point of no return. In some sense its a good thing, the place is extremely challenging and definitely keeps me on my toes. On the other hand it means that the majority of my time is spent reading, studying, doing homework, and oh did I mention studying? Well what does this have to do with a need of a change?

There is a big part of me that has wanted to move out. I think every guy or girl gets this feeling throughout the end of high school and into there college years, just out of pure nature. Having lived at home for now my first three years of college, and having "at least" another year if not more of school left, I am getting the need to get out and be more independent. The truth of the matter is I am rarely home at all, when I am not at school I am working, and when I am not doing those two things I am usually sleeping or studying. Jenn and I spend very little time enjoying each others company (outside of this last three day weekend, we hadn't had a date for months). So why the need to get out? I have lived in the same house for 98% of my life, the same bedroom for 95% of my life, and shared a room with my brother for a good portion of it as well. And not to complain, since I have nothing to complain about, I just want to have a bit of freedom, a bit of independence, and a bit of change. That is a big step coming from a guy who hates the thought of change most of the time however I have this strong desire to have something new.

Does that mean I will move out? Well I am still tossing the idea around, it will take some prayer and some time to decide what to do, but the need for something new or different is definitely alive.

"O Lord, you alone are my hope. I've trusted you, O Lord, from childhood." Psalm 71:5 NLT